Time Never Slipped Away

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                                        Maze of Memories -Stray Kids

A Chinese thought that time flows backwards, not in a scientific manner but rather perspective of time way. In Mandarin PAST is 前 (qián) also meaning "in front" & FUTURE 後 (hòu) meaning both "in back/behind" and "future".

The Past is "in front" cause it can be seen & reflected upon will the future is "behind" as it can't be seen. 

 With the New Year I get reminded of time, & of how time slipped away "like a bottle of wine"(Taylor swift is the best I had to) anyways the saying "Time slips through our hands like grains of sand," no matter how tight we hold on to it, it slips through just like we loss parts of our self or people we love no matter how tight we hold on to, overtime. Midnight doesn’t change us, it simply reveals how much we’ve already changed over the span of a year but still stuck in the same place.

The Chinese philosophy tells us more to the story, if the second I'm born I have all the time, at the given moment every second lost has no value at all, then maybe I have not been losing time at all the whole time the past is "in front" of me like I have been collecting it. Maybe time never slipped away at all. Perhaps it has been quietly waiting in front of me all along, like a gift already opened and already mine, shaped by every version of me that believed life was something to hold on to. And yet, maybe time was never meant to be held. Maybe it was meant to be lived, absorbed, and layered into us until it becomes an integral part of who we are.

So maybe the question isn’t how much time you’ve lost, but how much of it you’ve already lived without noticing. If the past is standing right in front of you, everything you’ve felt and survived is still here, shaping you.

(I got to know about this thought through a creator on Instagram if I find them I'll mention the video below)